10 Ways to be Happy

*I've been so busy this past week. I need to finish my tasks from OSIS and study for pelatnas. It was tiring. Really tiring. So I decided to open tumblr today to refresh myself and found this post which I think I need to share. Happy reading!

Who Am I...

*Found this (again) on tumblr. I've always loved good poems. I feel like there is something magical inside them. And this one that I found is beautiful yet heartbreaking. My favorite. This poem is written by "L.L." by the way, you can read more poems in lyvixo.co

An old painted wall
Covered in multicolor layers
The top coat outrageous and fun
The last one dull and broken, tattered and lost
Peel back each layer
One by one

An ugly doll
Painted in dirt and grime
Standing next to the flawless others
The unwanted one left behind
Leaving it in the background
Nothing to them in comparison

A butterfly without wings
Still beautiful,
Still trying,
But unfinished
A part of it missing
Never to be complete

A faceless person
Always chasing a moving train
So close to the goal
But yet so far away
Forever trying to keep up
But never reaching on

A shadow of someone better
Never being the top
Always over done
Seeking to overcome one's obstacles,
But never surpassing them
Always a shadow of another

A loner in a crowded room
Bodies surrounding
Laughter consuming
Chatter and happiness and excitement in the air
All around me
But I've never felt so alone

L.L.

A (Real) Holiday

Holiday. What will come to your mind when you hear that word? Is it gathering with your family and friends? Going to some mall and doing shopping, travelling, or playing some sports? Or is it just laying around lazily in your houses, being happy because you could sleep and wake up late and surfering the internet all day? Well, if you think that holiday is. To me, it is completely the opposite.

I'm not saying that I don't go anywhere at all and stay at my dorm. I'm not saying that I don't have fun. It's just... whole this time in my life, at least since I was a fifth grader, my holiday has never been that kind of holiday. Because of this olympiad things, I need to spend my holiday to study because I won't have time to study it at school. And now, as I become a high-schooler, I also spend my time in holiday for finishing organization tasks.

Once again, I never say I don't like it. In fact, I really do. It's good to feel... productive. It's good to me to know that I don't waste even a second in a day (Playing some game for awhile is not wasting time, ok!). Of course I go somewhere sometimes. Whether it is just somewhere near to buy some snacks, or eating-out, or even go visiting my families. But I rarely have a holiday-plan like... for a week or so. Even, I only go somewhere if I think I already surpass my target for the day. But Islam has taught us to spend our time wisely and to not do something useless, right?

I know it seems too ambitious (Maybe that's why I get slytherin in pottermore) and you would think it's really boring. I need to admit that I feel bored sometimes. But my mother always says that we need to make sacrifices. For everything. Moreover for our dreams. And I stick up to that. I believe all sacrifices that I have made will turn out into a good thing someday, And it actually isn't really that bad. I mean, when you do something you love to do (even if other people think it is not something to be loved to do) you wouldn't feel that bad. Actually, I will be more bored and feel worse if I just laying on my bed and twittering all day.

And the most important thing is, I learn to manage my time even when I was given freedom not to manage it. I learn to hold myself from doing the unproductive things, even if it is the one I really want to do at that moment. I learn to put my priority of one thing over another.

Believe it or not... holiday is the best time to learn things. So many things...

God Listens

Sometimes, we want something so badly. We pray for that fluently. We give 'deadlines' to God for giving us that thing. When we don't get what we want at the 'deadline' we thought our prayer is not listened and will never be listened. But tonight, I realize it's completely wrong. God listens. He always listens. God always gives the best thing for us in the best time, at the best place, on the best way. We just need to wait and believe. Because... God loves us.

29-10-13

We often forget that there are people who truly care of us. Sometimes, like last week, I somehow felt alone and thought that I don't have any friends here (since last week, I've been joining pelatnas). I saw people laughing and talking together in dining room or the class, and I need to admit that I felt jealous. Of course I have friends from my school, but still... I felt like I didn't belong here

Until the Sunday came. And I realized I was wrong. My mother called me, my cousin visited me, my friends from school contacted me and told me stories about school. They might not know but those things that they've done meant a lot to me. I realize that I have families that love me and friends who care of me. It touched me when my friends called me. I felt like they didn't leave me behind and they won't. It made me realize that I'm still part of them no matter how far I'm from them.

It made me realize one more thing. I need to work my hardest and do my best here, in pelatnas. I want to make my families, my friends, and my teachers proud of me. I never know how strong the power of support is until now.

By the way, things have gone better here, I made new friends. I could talk, laugh, or at least smile at them. Everything takes time, right ?

So... Bismillah... I'm going to start a new day here with new spirit and a smile on my face :D

03-07-2013

"Just because I laugh a lot, doesn’t mean my life is easy. Just because I have a smile on my face every day, doesn’t mean that somethings not bothering me. Its just that I choose to move on with the negative in my life, and keep my head up, instead of dwelling on the past."

That was a post on tumblr that I've just reblogged, and yes, I'm quite agree with it. I don't like crying if I could prevent it. I don't think expressing your sad or angry feeling everytime will make your condition better, I guess it will just make your feeling worse. When you laugh over your problem or smile over your tears, it's like manipulating your brain that you're happy. Anyway, I know this may sound cliche, but I believe everything happens for a reason, it's just sometimes the reason is unknown. Rather than dwelling and regretting your past, it's better to move on and face your future by learning from the past. So, let's smile, laugh, and don't forget to stay positive :D

What I call as art..

What I've made in my graphic design class this year. Still don't know if I could ever call these as art...

Editing in photoshop

Final exam task : book marker with sport theme

book marker 2

Paper folder (inside)

Paper folder (outside)

Studying photoshop

combining picture in corel and photoshop

First time learning photoshop

The transformation of the mouse from 2D to 3D