10 Ways to be Happy

*I've been so busy this past week. I need to finish my tasks from OSIS and study for pelatnas. It was tiring. Really tiring. So I decided to open tumblr today to refresh myself and found this post which I think I need to share. Happy reading!

Who Am I...

*Found this (again) on tumblr. I've always loved good poems. I feel like there is something magical inside them. And this one that I found is beautiful yet heartbreaking. My favorite. This poem is written by "L.L." by the way, you can read more poems in lyvixo.co

An old painted wall
Covered in multicolor layers
The top coat outrageous and fun
The last one dull and broken, tattered and lost
Peel back each layer
One by one

An ugly doll
Painted in dirt and grime
Standing next to the flawless others
The unwanted one left behind
Leaving it in the background
Nothing to them in comparison

A butterfly without wings
Still beautiful,
Still trying,
But unfinished
A part of it missing
Never to be complete

A faceless person
Always chasing a moving train
So close to the goal
But yet so far away
Forever trying to keep up
But never reaching on

A shadow of someone better
Never being the top
Always over done
Seeking to overcome one's obstacles,
But never surpassing them
Always a shadow of another

A loner in a crowded room
Bodies surrounding
Laughter consuming
Chatter and happiness and excitement in the air
All around me
But I've never felt so alone

L.L.

A (Real) Holiday

Holiday. What will come to your mind when you hear that word? Is it gathering with your family and friends? Going to some mall and doing shopping, travelling, or playing some sports? Or is it just laying around lazily in your houses, being happy because you could sleep and wake up late and surfering the internet all day? Well, if you think that holiday is. To me, it is completely the opposite.

I'm not saying that I don't go anywhere at all and stay at my dorm. I'm not saying that I don't have fun. It's just... whole this time in my life, at least since I was a fifth grader, my holiday has never been that kind of holiday. Because of this olympiad things, I need to spend my holiday to study because I won't have time to study it at school. And now, as I become a high-schooler, I also spend my time in holiday for finishing organization tasks.

Once again, I never say I don't like it. In fact, I really do. It's good to feel... productive. It's good to me to know that I don't waste even a second in a day (Playing some game for awhile is not wasting time, ok!). Of course I go somewhere sometimes. Whether it is just somewhere near to buy some snacks, or eating-out, or even go visiting my families. But I rarely have a holiday-plan like... for a week or so. Even, I only go somewhere if I think I already surpass my target for the day. But Islam has taught us to spend our time wisely and to not do something useless, right?

I know it seems too ambitious (Maybe that's why I get slytherin in pottermore) and you would think it's really boring. I need to admit that I feel bored sometimes. But my mother always says that we need to make sacrifices. For everything. Moreover for our dreams. And I stick up to that. I believe all sacrifices that I have made will turn out into a good thing someday, And it actually isn't really that bad. I mean, when you do something you love to do (even if other people think it is not something to be loved to do) you wouldn't feel that bad. Actually, I will be more bored and feel worse if I just laying on my bed and twittering all day.

And the most important thing is, I learn to manage my time even when I was given freedom not to manage it. I learn to hold myself from doing the unproductive things, even if it is the one I really want to do at that moment. I learn to put my priority of one thing over another.

Believe it or not... holiday is the best time to learn things. So many things...